Absolutely messed up but....

I've been going back to the city and for the past two weeks.. I have been partying with friends in a bar/karaoke place located in Manhattan, Chinatown (Neway) and in Brooklyn (100fun). The last place i've been to was last week at 100fun, while partying and drinking with friends, my ex that I've recently broke up a month or two ago came up to me and dragged me outside and had a talk with me. With all his strength, he wrapped his arms around me and wouldnt let go.. he starts asking me for a second chance but all I did was stood there. A few minutes later, he started tearing a bit... this is when it made me feel a bit of guilt... but i still didnt bother to do anything about it. When the place was bout to close around 4, I was heading out the door and bumped onto an old friend of mine ... more of an old crush that I havent seen for years... this is when we started talking and webcaming with each other for the past few days. This is when i started to gain a bit of feelings to ... yes.. i know what a shame of me..I know im a bit messed up... but to think of it.. old crush that I've been liking for years back in jhs? Long story short, I gain a slight feeling for him.. this relates to the film where the daughter-in-law totally forgot about her own husband and end up having slight attraction to her husband's friend... I feel it takes time to heal pains, feelings and memories from the past... and as time pass, its time for people to move on... In a way, I understood how the daughter-in-law felt, she needed something she desired after she lost one thing... and as for me... as time pass, I've completely forgot about my ex and falling for my old crush.. once again