Birthdays!

a new month has creeped in yet again and everyday from now on we will worte on the top of our papers a ten instead of a 9 and that is pretty cool. however it also seems that a lot of birthdays fall in this month and i know a lot of people including myself who are october babies. it seems to suck how the exciterment of your own birthday starts to fade away as you get older and i guess that is the point. because as you get older you are getting closer to the grave and nobody wants to die.
another aspect of birthdays is also that if you don't have loved ones to celebrate with then it really doesn't matter what day of the year it may be. everyday seems the same when you are alone. loneliness is a very scary thing to me and i hope i never become lonely in my life. i hope there is always somebody there to comfort me and for me to lean on when i need them. usually friends fill up this empty void in others lives and so far i have not met that friend and i wish someday i do get to meet them.