Final Blog

Well this is my final blog and I have to say that this has been quite an experience. I've never had a class like this and it was very interesting. All of the plays were really interesting. I have to say that my favorite was Don Juan because he was this Casanova who wanted every woman in the world and in the end he gets dragged into hell for everything hes done.

I enjoyed the discussions that we had in class and being able to analyze the plays and see deeper into them than just what you read. Everything was really interesting and enlightening. I have to say that this was truly the most memorable class I will ever have.

No place like home

I have to admit that even though I like college a lot, I miss home. I miss being in my own room and having my mom around. I've always been really close to my mom and it was really hard to leave her and come here. When I had to chose a college to go to I wanted Stony Brook because it had an affordable tuition and its not far from school. The drive from my house to school is about an hour and a half or three hours by train. It may seem like a bit much but its better than being four or five hours away.

Regardless of how comfortable I feel here, I'm always excited when I go home. I like going home and seeing my mom get excited to see me and act like she hasnt seen me in months. She always asks me what I want to do or what I want her to make me. Then when its time for me to go back to school I'm a little sad but Stony Brook has also become my second home so its not so bad. But no matter how I feel I always know that if anything happens, I'll always have my home.

Marilyn Monroe quote

"I'm selfish, impatient and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I am out of control and at times hard to handle. But if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best."
— Marilyn Monroe

When I saw this quote I automatically liked it. I read it and the first thing that came to my mind was "wow thats so true." If someone want to be with you then they should like you as you are, rough patches and all. If they tell you that they like you but try to change things about you or tell you not to do certain things then they dont deserve you. Everyone has flaws and no one is perfect, so they should accept you for what you are. If the person cant do this then they dont deserve to have you when you are being what they deem "appropriate." Its like another one of Marilyn Monroe's quotes "Its better to be hated for what you are then loved for what you are not."

Fire and Ice

Some say the world will end in Fire

Some say Ice

From what I've tasted of Desire

I hold with those who favor Fire

But if I had to perish twice

I think I know enough of Hate

To say that for destruction Ice

Is also great

And would suffice

~Robert Frost

This is my absolute favorite poem. I first heard it in the 6th grade and I fell in love with it. I think it has to do with love and hate that people feel. When he talks about the world ending I think its sort of how something will overtake you as a person. "I hold with those who favor fire" means that he prefers to be overtaken by love and passion. But its also possible to be overtaken by hate (ice). Both of these things are very powerful and can do a lot of damage to a person whether its good or bad. Everyone knows love and hate and they know that both can destroy a person especially if they are strong enough.

Holiday without the Happy

Why is it that this year no one that I know is in the Christmas spirit including myself. I mean, they really arent. My mom says that if it was up to her, no one would get anything for Christmas this year. Honestly I really dont care. I dont feel like its the holiday season or anyone is being cheery. Maybe its because its finals week and all anyone is concentrating on is studying. But even when I go home, you dont see people like other times. There are very few houses that are actually decorated with lights and you dont see people very happy. Its almost like the Christmas spirit was sucked out of them. Maybe people need to start listening to some Christmas songs and drink some eggnog to get into the spirit.

Never let a man abuse you

"Never let a man take advantage of you." These are the words that my mother has told me since I was little and even to this day. They may seem like the typical words a mother might tell her daughter but they are very true. She has always told me that I have to know what Im worth and never let anyone especially a guy treat me as less than what I am. There are many guys in the world that think that women are beneath them and will treat them like property. They talk down to them and try to control them. But my mother always taught me that if anyone ever did this to me, to set them straight. I am not inferior to anyone and I deserve to be treated with respect and as an equal. God forbid any man ever comes up to me and starts treating me like trash. I think I would go crazy.

One of the most important things that my mom told me about this was "never let a man put his hands on you." This is one of the things that I would never ignore. Neither one of my parents ever hit me or my brother when we were kids or as adults. So if my own parents never did it then there is no way in hell that anyone else would have the right to do it. If a man ever hit me, I would first start swinging back and then leave him. There are many women who have been hit and stay with they guy because they say that it was an "accident" and "he didnt mean to do it." These are poor excuses because its just like everyone says "if he hits you once, he'll hit you again." I would never let myself be abused by any guy and no one else should either.

Abortions

One thing that I have never understood and never will is how women can have abortions. I am completely against it and I always will be. Having an abortion is the same thing as killing a child. I dont care if according to the government a baby isnt considered a person until it is out of the mother. Even when the baby is in the mothers womb, it can feel things which includes pain. There are so many women who have abortions because they werent careful and got pregnant by accident. I think that if you think you are enough of an adult to have sex, then you are adult enough to deal with the consequences of it and not take the easy way out. Do you have any idea how many women in the world want to have a baby and arent able to. While these women are suffering and longing for what they cant have, others are going out and having possibly multiple abortions in their lives. If a woman is pregnant and she knows that she isnt going to want the baby then she should just have the baby and give it up for adoption and let someone who wants a baby to raise it.

Some people who I talk to about this say "Oh but what if the woman was raped?" I understand that unfortunately this happens to some people and I would never wish it on anyone. But after this happens to a woman, there is nothing stopping her from taking a plan B pill to prevent the pregnancy. Most women would go to the hospital after this happens and in the hospital itself they provide it for you.

Overall I believe that women who get abortions are just cowards who dont have a heart or a soul. I would never have an abortion done because for one, I would never let myself become pregnant if I wasn't ready. But if it ever did happen for some reason I would either have the baby and be the best mother I could possibly be, or if I knew I wasnt ready for it I would make sure that the baby went with someone who I knew would love and take care of it like it deserves.

Photography

These were two pictures of many that I took around campus. Ive never been much of a photographer but one of my suitemates is really into it and she got me started on it too. At first I wasnt too sure because I would see her taking pictures of anything that she saw. I always thought that there was no way that taking a picture of a random tree could come out good. But I was wrong. One day I was walking back from the railroad and I had my camera on me. I saw that the sun was going down and it looked really pretty so I decided to give it a try. In the end I was really surprised at how good the pictures came out. I put them on the computer and fixed them even more so now they look even better. I really surprised myself because I never thought that I could take good pictures but it turns out that I'm not that bad after all.

God or the Big Bang

I hate when someone asks me "do you believe that God created the earth or the Big Bang theory?" I dont like this question because chances are that whoever is asking you this has their own theory or belief and if yours is different than theirs then its likely that they are going to try and tell you why your wrong. My beliefs are my beliefs. I dont care what someone else thinks because whether they think that it was God, the Big Bang or some other high being, their thoughts and beliefs dont affect me in any way. Just because someone believes in one thing doesnt mean that I have to believe in the same thing. Everyone thinks different things and no one knows who is right or wrong. For all we know everyone could be wrong and the truth is something that no one even considered. So if someone comes to me with this question and I feel like I have to answer, I will tell them something that will go with whichever phenomenon they believe. I'll say "I believe that God created the Big Bang." They wont expect it and they will probably shut up for enough time for you to get away. :)

Facebook addiction

I dont understand why people are so obsessed with Facebook. If you walk up to someone or see someone on a computer or their phone, they are more than likely going to be on facebook. People have become so addicted to it that they cant function without it. Some of my suitemates cant even study for their finals because they keep going on the site. I think the worst that Ive seen was one day when my building had a fire drill at 3:30 in the morning. I believe that at that exact time we were probably going down the stairs to go outside. The next morning when I check, one of my suitemates had her status as something like "stupid fire drill" and it said that she wrote it at 3:30am. That means that while everyone is rushing out of the building incase its a real fire, she is updating her facebook status! Yes I admit that I have a facebook but Im not addicted to it. The only reason that I got one in the first place is because you can no longer do anything without one. When I came to orientation for Stony Brook they said "you can find all this information on our facebook site." I was like "OMG fine" so I got one and even after getting one I still cant see why this is so addicting to some people and I guess I'll never find out.

Snow

Well it was snowing yesterday and its supposedly going to snow tonight too. Ewww. I honestly dont like snow or the cold. I hate having to put on layer upon layer of clothing then when you go outside you still freeze. I used to like the snow when I was little but who didnt. Now its just inconvenient to have to walk in everyday especially when we start classes again. I dont understand why people like it. Okay I understand if youre one of those people who go skiing or snowboarding then you would obviously want it to snow. But I am not one of those people. I like the spring when its warm but not scorching hot. (I dont like any extreme) If it could stay like 75 degrees all year round that would be the best thing in the world.

Stupid Vlog

This is just me ranting on about finals week because I have no idea what to write about. :/

Performances

This is just me talking about the Tank a little. :)

Humans Project for HDV

This was a video that I did for my HDV class. We had to describe what it meant to be human to us and this was my answer. I think that being human means being yourself, doing the right things and doing things because it satisfies you before anyone else. I was really proud of this video and I hope you like it. :)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PA4fm3HZ5nE

Finals week

It's finally here, the week everyone has been dreading- FINALS WEEK!! This is the week where everyone studies like theyve never studied before and the library becomes your best friend. Before college I was never really the type of person to study. Sure I went over my notes a bit, but I never actually studied for hours. Thats not the story anymore in college. Now I study as much as I possibly can. If I dont study then I know that I will fail that test and I absolutely hate failing anything. I have been studying for my Linguistics, Biology and Math class like crazy. I have done so well on my exams until now and I dont plan on messing up now.

RUR at the Tank

In the Tank performance, when the other class was reading RUR I thought they did it really well. The speakers that they had were very good. When they read their parts they didnt sound like they were reading from a script. Everything sounded like it was happening for real and you were hearing it as it was happening. You wouldnt think this would be possible since they werent acting it out but the way they spoke did more than any performance could. They read with emotion and it felt so real that you forgot that you were sitting listening to people read a play.

The Tank performance

When I heard that some people were going to be acting out Hamlet at The Tank, I thought that they were just going to stand on stage and read a couple of lines. I didnt expect it to be as good as it was. The performance was great. You actually believed what they were saying. When Chris was playing Hamlet you actually believed that he was crazy and suicidal. It really surpasses my expectations.

Jig on stage

Ive heard of people doing things to warm up and get into character but I've never seen one like this. When she started doing an Irish Jig on stage I thought it was a little weird at first. But then I saw that she was pretty good at it. I guess everyone has their own way of doing things and this was hers. :)

Preparations for the Big Show

On the day of the show I got to The Tank pretty early so I was able to see everyone setting up. It was cool to see how everyone was working together to get everything ready. They knew what they had to do and did their best to make everything come out perfect. Some were setting up projectors and other things while others were preparing to perform.

I have to admit that when I first saw the place I wasn't sure how things were going to look but in the end it all came out better than I thought it would.

Waiting for the show to begin

It was the day of the big show and we decided to do a quick vlog on what was going on :)