Working off the topic of my last post and taking it in another direction (all the while getting another blog post done. Score!), I'm learning slowly to be brutally honest with myself and look at my dilemmas logically rather than favorably. In doing so, I came up with a theory for my pathetic state of mind and even more pathetic grades: I put no effort in because I more or less hate this school, and I hate this school because I find it atrociously boring. My mindset stopped there until I came to a huge realization-- I may only see this school as atrociously boring because I haven't been involving myself in it nearly enough.
I know fully well that there are organizations, clubs, and events very well worth my time at Stony Brook, but I never know where to start looking, and thus I never do. Instead, I follow the same general routine every day and indulge in going home for as long as possible whenever I don't have class because I find sitting at home somehow far more productive and entertaining than sitting in the dorm. The thought never occurred to me that if I stay here for more than three days a week there may be things worth attending, people worth meeting, and experiences worth gaining waiting for me right under my nose. Hey, it's worth a try at very least, right?
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