Plan for my future

What I am going to do after one year from now? This is one of my worries these days. I plan to graduate this university next spring semester. After that, I want to get a job, of course. However, I’m not sure that I will be able to get a job in the U.S as an international student. It’s more difficult to find it. If I couldn’t get a job and do anything here, I have to go back to Korea.

Someday, I will go back to Korea. I’m not going to live here forever. That’s what I want to do, and my parents want to do. My parents keep asking me when you will graduate the university. I think they want me to come back to Korea as soon as possible. I know I have to spend a lot of money for studying abroad, so my parents are worried about keep spending money for my education. But that’s not what I really want to go back to Korea after graduating.

I usually make my plan for my future. I used to do it, but I’m not sure everything now, so I don’t even want to think about my future these days. There are so many things to be concerned about. I keep asking myself ‘Should I delay my graduation from here?’, ‘what is really I wanted to do?’ or ‘Can I get a job or intern in the U.S.?’ I know I am silly and stupid about trying to avoid my reality now.