youtube thing

http://www.youtube.com/kisunchick#p/u

the last post.. dun dun dun

It is 9:32, I am in need of a nap and I still have about a million things to do tonight. Gotta love college. I guess you gotta do what you gotta do. I mean this is the whole college experience right? No sleep, coffee jitters and surrounded by books. Yeah that's me. I'm so happy my last final is tomorrow. I need a break... like a week off would be fabulous, just to try to remember what it's like to be human and sleep like a normal person. Strangely I had a chance to not take classes this winter but I decided to take one anyway, I think saying at home like that would be too strange... and frightening.

I really have to track down all of my work to put up on youtube... like right now. Then I have to make more coffee and get back to my organic chemistry. What's up with people calling me sweetheart recently? like complete strangers.. "Hi there, nice to meet you."


#50!!

I need to start up my blog again.. after I sleep for like 2 days.

Stony Books closed?

Ok this isn't good. My friend drove by there and said there was a for sale sign or for rent sign on the window... This is where I got my books for this semseter.. at decent prices too.. This is kind of sad. The bookstore at SBU is extremely over priced.. how are they allowed to do that by the way? We pay for tuition and then we pay $45 for a book I found online for $18 online.. true story. They know the economy is "kind of" bad right now. Please cut us a break. Haven't they heard the cliche that college students are pretty much broke... yeah that's pretty much true if we have to spend ~$150 per class for books. I'm so happy I don't live on campus... I'd hate to dish out money for the meal plan too.


#49

Fund raising..

I think I'm going to do a bake sale... all by myself... for an animal shelter.

I usually bake for my mother's coworkers... so save me from myself and I decided I'm going to put a spin on it for the holidays. I recieved a letter from the shelter I got my kitty from asked for donation and I'd really like to do something nice for them. My cat definitely has a special place in my heart. My mother obviously works with doctors (since she is one) and I think if they could actually buy the cookies I bake instead of inhaling 10 dozen of them in less than an hour it would be really a nice gesture for the shelter. I just have to figure out what kind of cookies I'm going to bake and how I'll price them. I think it's a sweet gesture.


#48

I'd like some snow please

Just when I'm inside. I really love the Christmas season, people are so cheery... myself usually included, there are presents and pretty lights. Sadly, there are finals too. Just add some snow and I'll be happy. It's like icing on the cake... literally and I miss it. If it started snowing right now I'd be happy. If it snowed so much my orgo final was canceled and I just got a B on it I'd be thrilled. If only there was a Santa...

If it would just snow on Christmas...


#46

Last minute shopping..

I really hate doing last minute shopping.. with a passion. I have my organic chemistry exam tomorrow and then I have to head into the city (with the extra tons of tourists) and track down Christmas presents. This should be fun. I doubt I'll be sleeping tonight and tomorrow I'll be running around NYC searching for presents. I love Christmas, I really do, but this sucks.

I usually make up my lists early in the season and do my shopping as early as possible but this year I'm cutting down to the wire. I also have to put up my Christmas tree. I really really really miss sleep. I have to remember to wear my comfortable shoes.. and bring extra coffee. I really hate procrastination and this semester.. that's all I've been doing and it has to stop.

#47

My munchkin

So like I said in my previous post, I have a little brother and I actually call him munchkin... even though he's only 7 and just about up to my shoulder... he's going to be 6'5 so yeah. Me and his father have issues (to say the least) and I once had someone say that they were surprised I loved my brother because of the relationship I have with his father. They were surprised I didn't call him my step brother or half brother or whatever... he's just my brother. Why would I treat my brother any differently or with any less affection just because of his father. Munchkin drives me crazy sometimes but I'd still do anything for him. It really bothers me that someone would think I'm the type of person to take any kind of hostility I feel for his father out on him. I named my brother (I doubt his father knows that), I was there when he was born, and even though I think he loves my cat more than he loves me, he's still my munchkin.


#45

Cooking shows + a 7 year old

So when my brother comes over it's difficult for me to find something to put on for him to watch on TV. I have a couple Disney movies but I guess he's not too interested anymore. He's into science stuff. I can't really put on Law & Order or Bones so I usually just put on the Food Network and he just stares at it the way I look at jewelry. I have a thing for jewelry by the way.

Last week we were watching a show on the Food Network and I asked about what he'd like to be when he grows up. He's extremely diplomatic, he can't even pick who he likes more out of his friends so picking a possible career is practically impossible. He's actually really into cooking and baking because of me so I suggested he think about that. I started really thinking about it and I realized that my mother and his father would never let him do that, that kind of sucks. He's a sweet kid and I love him to death and I want the best for him, it's just not fair that his future will probably be decided. I was groomed to become a doctor. I happen to love it so it's perfectly fine but for him... Let's just say when he was born, his father said that hes going to be President... like The President. Poor kid, yeah I won't let them do that to him. No one really stood up for me but I'll stand up for him if they choose a career for him. It was like a 1 in a million chance that I'd actually want to be a doctor, my mother just got extremely lucky.

#44

Being 21...

What's the big deal? It's not like people have their first drink when they turn 21 or do really anything else for the first time when they turn 21... so I don't get it. I've decided since turning 21, I'm going to stay 21 for 10 or so years... then I'll turn 22. I think it's a good plan. So when my boyfriend is.. much older.. and all of his friends are going for the younger girl to make themselves to feel better... he'll already have one. I think he was more excited for me to turn 21 than I was. I don't really drink so it wasn't a big deal. So now what's next? You're excited to turn 18, and 21.. and now what? 65? you can retire...

I'm pretty tall and mature for my age so I think most people I assumed I turned 21 a while ago. I'm friends with my mother's friends so I hang out with older people. One of my closest friends is 10 years older than me. Is age really that big a deal any more? I think I can go and have coffee and have a decent conversation with most of my professors. I don't know, maybe it's just me but I don't get it.


#43

Tourists in the city..

This was going through my mind when I was walking through the city to The Tank on Saturday. "Where did all of you come from?!!" I usually try to avoid the city around this time of year because there is just too many people but wow, it's like all of people that came during the past 10 or so years decided to come back this year... and specifically on Saturday.

It really bothers me when I walk in the city and I usually walk pretty fast because I'm going somewhere... it's difficult to "stop and smell the roses" in the city when you just smell polluted air. So I'm walking through the city and all of the sudden the people in front of my just stop... and I pretty much walk into them. I feel kind of bad but can you please step off to the side to have your conversation or look at your map? I'm walking, it's freezing, and I'd hate it if people kept walking into me. That's the one thing that irks me about tourists in the city. I don't mind it when people are just walking about things just flow... but stopping in the middle of the street and with my luck right in front of me isn't very nice.

#42

What happened this semester..

I honestly don't know. It just flew by. I met some amazing people, I turned 21, and oh yeah it's my second year in my apartment. It just went by so fast! I'd like a do over please. Like right now would be nice. Just go back to September and start again. I think I'd do some things differently. Organic chemistry would consume my life.

Now I have to get ready for next semester. I can't believe I'll be graduating soon. Then medical school... then I'll be a doctor... and maybe I'll rule the world one day. Okay no thanks to the last one, but I will change it. I'm really upset I didn't remember these blogs earlier.. I would have liked to spend more time on them and I feel like I'm rushing through and that isn't like me. Definitely would like to redo that. I need to invest in some post-its to remind myself of things like this.

#41?

Brain fart

Ok so I admit, I completely forgot everything was due today. My brain has pretty much turned into mashed potatoes. My organic chemistry exam is tomorrow morning at 8am no less and I am freaking out. I have to dig up everything and post it up on youtube. Sleep is really overrated but oh how I miss it dearly. My apartment is a total mess because cleaning takes time... which I have zero of. Tomorrow after the exam and my little trip to the city I have to clean my apartment... and take a nap. This semester really flew by. I don't remember where I put my music for this class and that's not good... I've been running on coffee and I'm really not supposed to drink it, I get really jittery, and I've had my third cup. And getting sick around finals should be illegal! Lucky me, I'm horribly sick.


#40?

being stressed and being creative

Some people don't think this goes hand in hand but I have to disagree. Usually the more stressed out I am the more I try to relax and some of the ways I try to relax is through art and through cooking. Both things I tend to do quite well and I do much more often and better when I have a lot going on.

When it comes to both cooking and drawing you really have to concentrate on what you're doing. Especially with baking, you can't really take a cheesecake out of the oven because you realized you forgot to add eggs. Especially with things like that, I have to really focus because things are extremely precise. And my mother's coworkers eat very well when I have stuff on my mind so I don't want to make anything that isn't up to my standards. I happen to make very good cheesecake but that's besides the point.

When it comes to art, I really have to take my time. I took an art class with two upper division biology classes and did extremely well in all of my classes and I think one of the reasons was because I could relax and let go at least twice a week and get lost with my work.

The more you relax the clearer you head is afterward, at least in my case, so I think it's important.

39

men v women

Ultimately, men and women are exactly the same. We just have different levels of hormones which give us different characteristics but that's about it. So if we're so similar how come some people believe women cannot do some of the things men can. I'm sure we cannot do all things as well, I'm not as strong because of differences the ability to build muscle. But I think since women can have children... well I think that's pretty amazing, so there is something we can do that men cannot.

So what's the deal of men (and I know some that have even said it to me... God help them) thinking and saying that women cannot do some things. Who put that in their head? I bet they saw women run households and now they go to work, run households and raise children. And giving birth, if we can do that I think men should give us a little more credit. I think women can do anything men can do. But men cannot do everything that women can do. I know some men grow up with old school values but in the US especially if you were born here.. I don't think it's right for men to look down upon women at all. It doesn't matter if a woman does not have a job outside of the home, running a household and often raising children is a job in and of itself. I feel like I have to prove I'm just as good as any guy to some people, it should be expected. I have enough people that give me problems because of my age but because of my gender... that's unacceptable.

38

intelligence?

Can someone be smarter? And I'm not taking about IQ... if you compare two people with an IQ of at least 90 and in the same age bracket you cannot say one personal is more intelligent. It doesn't matter if one person went to college and the other person did not. I really think this is true. No one knows anything.. sorry if you thought you did. So even if you compare those two people they won't know the exact same stuff. So one person will know something the other will not so technically the "test" is inconclusive. Does knowing calculus make you more intelligent than someone that knows html. If you stick that calculus person in front of a computer and you tell them to write html they'll probably sit there and scratch their head. The same thing applies for the html person and calculus. Or calculus and raising children... the list goes on and on. I don't think it's possible to compare people like that. Especially as people get older they have more experiences and learn different things. That's why some universities give life experience credits.

I really hate the term smarter or more intelligent or anything that means the same thing. I know I can teach someone older than me something they do not know, and I know they can teach me something in return. So technically there's no difference in intelligence.

37

my life... on a cell phone

Ok so I got my iphone a couple months ago and this thing can do anything... like literally anything. Once it starts controlling my oven I may get scared but yeah. Oh it works as a remote control for my tv...

So I remember the 1st phone with internet. It was such a huge deal and I remember waiting a 45 minutes for movie theater website to load... eventually I just gave up. I remember when gas was $.85. Now I get irritated when I don't get reception everywhere. I have horrible reception and no 3g in my apartment and it doesn't make me happy.

Anyway, this phone is insane. I have over 100 applications on it ranging from medscape which is similar to epocates to sonic the hedgehog which a pretty old school game. It does everything and there has to be at least 10 applications that I have no tried yet.

It's just amazing how technology has changed. I remember my first computer and how I used to have to get on the internet... the scary sounds and whatnot. Now it's like I've moved to another world. I wonder how things will be in another 5 years. I think I'd like to fly.

36

materialism and women

I think it's kind of ironic that women are often expected to look and act a certain way but then we're ridiculed because we're materialistic. I'm just thinking about my recent sephora order...

By society's standards women are "supposed to" look put together. Not that hoodies and sweat pants don't have a special place in my heart, I generally will not go out in them unless I'm going to school. Anyway, looking put together costs $$$. In the end it can cost quite a lot. So while some people can complain that women spend too much time at the mall or spend too much money on clothes... they seem to forget that if we didn't looking put together would more difficult.

While I hate shopping for hours on end I know sometimes it's necessary and I'll dig out my conformable shoes and go on a mission to find what I need.

And what's so terrible about enjoying nice things? As long as we're not buying out a store or going crazy and it's our money, shhhh.

So..

Dear Men,
I'm sorry we cannot always roll out of bed and just look fabulous. Spending longer in the bathroom is sometimes necessary to look the way we do. You really have to deal with it. I promise it'll be worth it so hush. Stop complaining about the time we spend at the mall or the time we spend talking to our friends about that one pair of shoes that may or may not go with that outfit. Do not look horrified when you first look in our vanity and find a million tiny jars or tubes, they have a purpose just don't touch or they'll all just fall out. Oh yeah, we like shiny stuff, a lot of guys don't get that yet so lucky you. I'm sure there's more but where's the fun in actually telling you stuff... you guys can read minds right?

35

being emotional and being a woman

I'm sorry but when did being emotional become such a bad thing? I get mad at some guys because they're so vanilla. I don't think being emotional and caring about people is such a bad thing. And I feel bad for people that think it is.

Since I'm going into medicine I think being emotional (I admit it and I'm proud) and caring is a big plus for me. So many people go into medicine for the wrong reasons and I think since I genuinely want to help people I think that's a very good thing. I think being emotional is part of being human.

In a way being emotional gives women is an extra plus for women. I think that helps us excel in things that have to do with caring about people. I'm not saying that men can't do a wonderful job but if some (not all) women are born with a little extra dash of compassion it can really help us out in the long run. Some men can "mother" and some can do a much better job of it than women but it's not for everyone.

Honestly, I think some women make better doctors when it comes to dealing with children and parents. I usually hear about pediatric doctors so I don't know about other fields.

It just kind of bothers me that someone said that because women are emotional we cannot do certain things...like medicine... and then I was called emotional. I know I will make an amazing doctor thank you very much because I love medicine, helping people and I genuinely care. From my experience and from what I've seen, that makes a good doctor.

#34?

and we're almost done

I can't believe the semester is almost over. I haven't written in a while but I did write down ideas in my phone about what to blog about so I'm definitely glad I thought of that.

Everyone seems to be floating away right now. I know finals are coming up and whatnot but still. I don't like that. My birthday just passed (finally 21... yay me.. but not really) and people I haven't talked to since middle school popped out of no where. It was nice in a way. Sadly, I was a kind of disappointed for my birthday but that is a whole other matter.

This has been quite an eventful semester and not in a very good way. I guess I just have to keep pushing forward, it could always be worse. Been there, done that.

Just a couple more weeks and I'll be done... only to start again for the winter semester. The fun never ends.

33? I really lost count.

im getting lazy.. this is not good

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2xqSyWuEhQM

I think this is #31.